i moved to this new flat abt 2 weeks now.. it s much beta than the previous one.  i m not rly sure if the people livin in here r beta than the ones i met b4, but the flat is rly gorgeous. i m loving it. i got this huge bedroom upstairs.. n the shower,, oh my god the shower,,,, its just incredible..lolol.... plus it s in a rly quite area.. i think people livin here much be rly rich and retired,, hehe coz u no wot. my car is the oldest 1 in the neighbourhood. haha,... cn u imagine? i mean my car is 1997.......

 

i got to talk to my flatmates a bit. the couple living downstair r rly sweet people ,, they ve ben married for 3 yrs. n ben known each other since high school... how cute is tat. i quite like them. my landlady s frm shanghai,... hehe.. i no wot u gona c that shanghaines r hard 2 deal with.. lol just let me be fair ,,, JEAN if u r reading this...n JENEFER ,, n WILLIAM .. ESTALLA.. u guys rock .. n u frm shanghai .. lol,,, she s good too.. just cnt c anything more.. coz i hvnt rly got chance to no her.. she maried to this kiwi guy, who i think is rly cool 2... actually i didnt rly got chance to talk 2 him either.

 

 

alrite.. every flat has this guy... he s either creepy or clingy.. i m not  rly sure which category does this guy belong 2. this guy living up stairs , he ownes the other single room... he s............... how do i put it.. i m a bit uncomfortable while talkin to him.. i got the feelin tat he s checking out  everyone  he meets ... n when he looks at u.. he s like stairin,,,, it gives me chills... i heard tat he s got a gf in japan.. but now kinda wna hv a another one instead . using his word is long distance relationship never works.ya~~~~!!!! if u said so?!!@@@!~.  y, i mean y man always wna other guy's gf? monogomy is rly tat cruel to guys?? guys r alwys walkin down the street with one eye on the girl passing him.... ...~~~~~~~~~~~~ i hope they get disease. alrite ,, ;p    beta dont kill all of them.... some of the guys la.... lol

 

anyway ,.. i gus i m gona stay in this flat 4 a while.. at least now i hvnt thinking of moving yet.. i l keep u posted .. ~~~

talked so many thgs with my mates over coffee.. suddenly feel like everybody's got a shockin story.. they jst seem so happy all the time ,, i hardly see them without smile.. but u never no.. its like the time tat u always think u r the saddest person in the world. i no tat it s selfish sometimes. u jst cnt help but blaming everyone or everything else...like i m the only victim. i no im guilty of it. i had tat time.

this girl in my flat s having a surgery today.. she s got a certain kinda of tumour on her breast. it isnt cancer yet, but sure it is scary enough, she never asked any money aft first year here.. honestly i cnt imagine how cn she went through all tis time. i wasn't rly fond of her b4.( n there s bit risky here since she mite read tis some time soon) but true... probably coz i need such quite time during nite, she s instead working in a bar every nite n gets back rly late, stepping on the wooden floor......... it is unavoidable..anyway,,, i was rly shocked when i saw her hands.. i dont no how long she s been workin to make her hands rough like tat.. i felt bit shamed thu.. i rly have no place of complainting...i want do something nice for her,, but as everyone nos me tat i cnt cook.............. so i jst gona pray here,,, n hope she s getting beta soon.

 

ps;

 my boss is recruiting this new guy 2moro.. i hope he s good... i do need an extra hand...

rather to make myself  feel like a failure everyday, i choose to make the best out of it. there s so many things i wana have n achieve b4 im 30.... n the time passes on. it seems like most of them hvn't done yet... lololol.... i rly need to be positive rite now.. otherwise i would choke to death....lol.....

 

 

dont no y, cnt help but feel happy recently. tho the crocodile hunter man steve irwen died ystday. I m rly sad abt it. i dont feel sad wen actors die... but i was shocked by his death. maybe coz he seemed a good heartedman to me.......not rly sure y i feel so contend recently//maybe as my horoscope said,, there will be an increase in my income sector...lololololl... wotever tat means,...lollll... smthg is beta than nothg,.

 

i gona move again,,, on next sat... keep counting on it.. how many time i m gona move in akl.. that would be my 3rd place to stay....

 

my friends buying apt in da city.... it rly got me thinking.. i wana one too. im sick of staying under other peoples' roof. lets face it, it does have lots of constrains

 

remember last time a guy came to our office . he s a long term friend of my boss. he first met me n he was probably jst trying to make a joke.. or wotever, if it was a joke it was rly poor taste. if its not  he got sm serious issues with asian students. he said ur not the one who got fake degrees r u? i was frozen there dont no how 2 response. n then i went to the bathroom cried... I jst keep thinkin of this thing . I hate how i reacted... how weak i was.. i should've confronted him. .. how dare he said smthg like tat? we studied 3 yrs in uni no less than kiwis. n wot we experienced they l never no. what the hell goin on in his mind? I m typical scorpio. i jst cant let it go.. i wana strangle him,... drag his through all our office building..n dump him in the rubbish bin across the street.. n then put on 300kgs  stinky garbage on top of him.....woooooooooow,, that feels so good...:)l0l0l0l0l0l0l